i love that it's slow around here today. i went on a girly trip, to target this weekend. i haven't been there in ages. i bought some cute little bowls~ sigh for the colors blue and white, together. and then of course i had to grab my favorite, black and white, trail mix, to go inside. ; )

made it to the asian market, as well. do you want to hear something that truly tickles me pink?? next door to the asian market, there is a new, jamaican restaurant. now that just gets me, deep in the heart. so... i didn't have time to try the restaurant, but i will this weekend. i will bring my camera too. i wanna taste the patties and the cocoa bread... dem rice an peas. you think they are ready for me? i wish you were here, you could come too, so i could taste, your choices as well. red stripe? ; )

i heard such amazing things, about this book, so i ordered it. can't wait for it to arrive.

how are you? and by the way... what cha readin?

xoxo

on a sunday morning

on a sunday morning, i carry sleepy stars, behind my ears, and in my hair.
the first of the yellow ranunculus, sit gently inside an old jam jar.

the needle hits the vinyl, meeting caribbean beats. and life fills each nook and hallway, reminding me~ love is my first religion.
showers wait, coffee with almond milk + selvedge magazine, lazily, come first.

last nights memories, of a chinese new year, celebration, find me + shrimp and plum wine.
and yes, buddha, ate first. ; )
are you enjoying your day? i hope so.

ps: have you seen this giveaway?? wouldn't that be a great chance at selfies and discovery? i put my hat in the draw. ; )

good enough

last night i made frozen corn, some sort of cheesy thing out of a box, and a roast chicken. it's what the kids wanted... no sweat.
daughter set the table
hubby made the drinks
after dinner
son cleared the table and began the dishes. as he started to dry the dishes, he sniffed the dry towel, walked over to the laundry shoot, threw it down. grabbed a clean towel, and began drying.
hmm... that kind of warmed my heart... kind of, in a big, friggin way! lol

i placed warmed, blueberry cobbler (that i bought at the bakery) in bowls, with a scoop of vanilla ice cream.
and we watched the game.

i wouldn't have the nerve, to ask the universe for more. ; )
good shit, i tell ya.

do something for you this weekend. even if it's just being. enjoy every minute of the ride.

"Well," said Pooh, "what I like best," and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called. ~A.A. Milne

happy weekend, my friends.

"Follies and nonsense, whims and inconsistencies do divert me, I own, and I laugh at them whenever I can."
jane austen

pretty winter

my daughter, having fun in the snow, with my new toy. my daughter inspires me... like tulips and graffiti, and the sea side. i could photograph this kid, all day. she is a sweet sport and convinces me, winter can be fun + pretty. she steps in front on the camera, with chipped fingernail polish, and the patience of job. ; ) thanks sweetie, for standing in the cold and allowing me, to snap away.

i adore film cameras. i really don't believe there is any replacing, the classic + honest, beauty, film can bring, to our photographs.

today is ~
saving my pennies for this film class~ + sign up for a chance at the giveaway. love love!
a continuous simmering tea pot on the back of the stove
arguing kids
pretty fingerless glove thingys
a dog who is now known as~ the "muffin thief"
maps sprawled all over the table
potato and onion hash... pass the ketchup, please.

enjoy your days~
; )

nooo, they weren't on my grocery list. but i just had to make room, for them. such a pretty color... so filled with, the hope of spring.
and such joy they have brought, to our family. i thought i would bring them here, to share ; )

"Bread feeds the body, indeed, but flowers feed also the soul."
The Koran

"You need not, to climb mountaintops

You need not, to cross the sea

You need not, to find a cure

for everything that makes you weak.

You need not to reach for the stars,

when life becomes so dark

and when the wind

does blow against the grain

you must follow your heart

you must follow your heart..."

city and colour~

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such a beautiful song to play in the background, 

while doing what you love, this weekend. 

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you are loved

happy weekend, my friends. 

; )

yep, those are miles' paws, atop my kate spade books. so much for manners huh- sweet thing he is.

enjoying~
early mornings and lemon tea
time for scripture
the spring color issue, of house beautiful. aka~ the pink issue ; )
taco night, which ultimately means, homemade spanish rice, night. yum!
having more than one calender- take that, franklin covey. lol
the last of the clementines
a good nights sleep after coughing the roof off the house ; (
flowers
your kindness

happy day, my friends.

pretty books and ribbons. it doesn't get much better than that, for an early morning. oh and a cup of camomile tea.

this little family of mine, is worn out. we are struggling a bit, to get back on the saddle, of life. colds and school and life's ups and downs. thank you life, i wouldn't have it any other way; ) the beautiful thing about it all, is there is a thaw in the air. a taste of spring, dare i say.
a bluer sky, longer day light, to help light our paths home, in the evenings.
beautiful hand written letters
good mail days
hope
and one of the most glorious stories, i have ever read. i know these words, will not be forgotten easy, by my heart. and yes it has inspired me. "inside the god box"

slow
so very slow

are you having a good day? i hope so.

you are loved~

"You can't get a cup of tea big enough or a book long enough to suit me."
c.s. lewis

just wanted to stop in and wish you love...

armfuls of love....

with 

extra

frosting

+

hugs

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'cause hugs are important

SO

important

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big wink

; )

xoxo

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"Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing." 

eve enlser

23

tgif! ; ) gonna take the weekend as it comes, slip slow, and be grateful, for what i have.
a trip to the doctor, has helped my sons coughing stop. the house slept sound, last night. thank goodness. it's been over a week. poor thing.

my daughter cleaned the kitchen spotless yesterday. and opened the windows, despite freezing temps. mama taught her well. ; )

as for my husband~ the man that held my hand on the day we married, through the birth of both babies, through my scare last week... this morning. i plan to look into his face, and love him for him. and celebrate 23 years, of marriage. nothing fancy, just a sweet red, a split of a sandwich and a trip to our favorite place... the bookstore. bless~

thank you my friends, i keep you beside my heart.

happy weekend~

"it's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along"
maroon 5

today was the first day since monday, i was allowed to shower. oh, i must have taken the longest shower of my life: ) i surrendered to the warmest of waters, allow my shower to baptize me, in its own sort of way.

it's slow around here today~
laundry is piling up
chicken soup for dinner
coughing kids
a new grocery list in the making
lavender oil

loving on this for v-day or any day.
wanting to make this. i positively love the classics. im old school and proud of it. lol

last night i went into the kitchen, and reached for the peanut butter jar. i stood at the counter and swirled away. only the hum of the heater, filled the house. i wiped crumbs off the counter that must have been left, from the prep of dinner earlier. these things, these little things, they felt so normal, so right.

tonight is a mug of tea, lots of quilts, replays of "the no 1, ladies' detective agency", and knitting. ; )

love~

good news

i received my results of the biopsy, and it is good. the specialist said it is fibrocystic changes, in the breast tissue and non c. she wants to see me in six months, for a check up.

this is such wonderful news. i am over the moon.

i gently say~i could have walked this road, without involving you, but why would i do that?
for years, we have shared our words about mascara, love, art, food, movies, children, recipes, loss, ect. why would i enter this journey, without you? it's just not me. i like having you beside me, i love that you invite me, to read about your life- good or bad. and i love that you have kept me in your prayers and thoughts.

i am not crazy for printing out your comments, and slipping them in my pocket, before i lay on a surgical table. i believe. i believe in good people, like you.
i am so happy, that you held my hand, along this road with me. you mean the world to me.

...gonna get some rest now... me and my ice pack, that refuses to freeze. lol; )

thank you
thank you~
you are loved.

God is able.

while i wait

life goes on while i wait. no news yet on the biopsy, but while i wait, life is being lived. i dig that. ; )

warm socks
knitting
freezing but sunny outside
picked up the book "little giant of auberdeen county" the other day. haven't been reading much though.
melting ice packs
hot tea
cold mornings
prayers said
exhausted kids~ today will just be a sleep in day. like a sunday, but on a tuesday ; )
grey coats and pretty scarves
kisses~ soft kisses are always good
traces of jam in the peanut butter jar
valentines day... it's around the corner, isn't it? i adore that.
cinnamon toast today, instead of plain yogurt and blueberries.
blue and white dishes on my mind
gently making our bed
i watched the time travelers wife, last night. so much love in that movie.
so much love here~

talk soon~

hey there,
just stopping in real quick. i am home, and the biopsy went well. the specialist said, the biopsy went "beautifully". she is feeling good about it all, but we have to wait for the results- tomorrow morning.
there was a moment during the biopsy,where the nurses, just started smiling, another nurse rubbed my hand. the doctor told me she was in the spot, where she needed to be. i was happy, because they all seemed happy. and that's what happiness does, it's contagious.

...this changes a person. all of it. it graduates one, into another chapter of life. walking in to an oncology center, or any medical center, where people know your name, must change a person... it must mold one in places, where the body isn't set yet. this wasn't obvious to me, but i am learning.

you all are so brave. i read each story, you share with me.

 today, i sat and held the hand of a woman, i didn't know. it reminded me of a time, i wanted to be a nurse. people that help others, are cool people. ; )
... no matter the results, this has changed me. i want to do something positive, with this walk i am walking.
you all are so kind to me. ; )
thank you so much.
i am a bit too tired, to be worried today. lol big smile.

i really can't describe to you, how happy i am. ; )

Blessings~

hey there. happy sunday. just wanted to stop in and say hello. i am good, just a bit nervous, about it all.
you all have been holding my hand, so i just wanted to fill you in, on tomorrow- i am heading in tomorrow morning, and the doctor say's, i will be there for a few hours, because of her other appointments, before me. i really wasn't supposed to be on the schedule- i appreciate them fitting me in.
they told me to bring lots of reading and stuff to do. wonder if they have wifi? lol i am gonna bring my knitting as well.

i made ziti last night, for the super bowl tonight. apparently everyone was at the grocery store yesterday, and apparently i was the slow poke, that was just getting in everyones way. lol i understand, our team is in the super bowl, everyone is a bit excited. go packers!

i feel like i am falling short, for my son's b-day. so much going on, i honestly didn't want that to happened, but life is happening. thought i could handle it all, but i can't. ... cake, ziti, and lots of love. that is my gift.

sixteen years ago, this young man taught me how to love. and today, with all the butterflies, in my tummy, and everything else... i will love him. when he was a baby, and i couldn't stop him from crying, i loved him. when i couldn't tell if he was tired, or cranky, i just loved him. today, i will just love him.

i will love my daughter, love my husband, and love you. that's the best i can do today. ; ) welcome to the family. lmao! xo

and because this scene from sixteen candles, makes me cry/laugh. happy sweet 16, my love.

+ another birthday wish- to fadda bob marley. you made this world a better place. ...in peace.

i will keep you updated.
thank you for the continued prayers.
xo

thank you so very much

thank you from the bottom of my heart. i have read every single comment and email. and when i was alone in that room waiting, crying... i read your words and they made me smile.

the specialist said the left breast was just dense tissue. but she saw something in the right breast. over all i had many mammograms today, along with many ultra sounds... like sherry and many of you survivors told me, just let them do their job. and i did. no matter how uncomfortable, the tests became.
the specialist said that "whatever" it is, it's less than 5mm, in size, small as a baby pea. she said if she had to guess, she would say it is not cancerous, and she believes it is "fibrositis"
Fibrositis literally means inflammation of connective tissue
the specialist said she will get me in on monday morning and do a biopsy, to make sure it is nothing serious. she said that she is "very very positive" about the whole thing. and i shouldn't worry about it.

this is such great news! such beautiful and great news.

i plan on having an AHmazing time this weekend. it's my son's 16th birthday, and there is cake involved. ; )

when people ask me why i blog... i will continue to tell them- you just have to be there, i guess. ; ) thank you for your kindness, prayers and thoughts.

for now, im going to go snore the paint off the walls. lol i am a bit tired. ; )

you are loved.

happy weekend, my friends.

God is able.

please pray for me ~update and thank you

i need you to pray for me. can you please do that for me? i got the call this morning that my mammogram "showed something" on both breast. i told the person on the other end, i was afraid. she said it could be nothing, it could be something. but a doctor needed to look closer. another mammogram, a scan of each breast. they wanted to get me in for this next week, "no" hubby said- tomorrow. i thank him for that.

but listen- you've always been so good to me. i need you to pray, for me.  if you don't pray, can you think of me tomorrow- at 9:15am central time? i believe in the power of prayer. God is my guide. i believe in good thoughts.

i am okay, i am not freaking out. i want to know if this is something or nothing. i am going to kick the door down, and fight to let them get "a better look".
i might cry later, cause i am a crier. but i will be there tomorrow, because so many women didn't have this opportunity, to find out what, if anything.  i will do it for them. i will do it for me.

put it in your planner, write me a note. please say a prayer for me.  i am asking you to hold my hand, no matter how far away you are.

i embrace fear, i embrace all the feelings, that will visit me- but i mostly embrace that God is walking every step with me.

i can do this.

and get out there and get a mammogram. take care of you!

thank you, thank you.

update: were looking in pretty good shape. ; ) posted above. thank you, so very much. 

the sweet, sofia, from etr-soi, has tagged me on my 5 daily essentials...

always a good book
pretty french magazines or any magazines with pretty in it. i deep sigh, at pretty.
a moleskin or any kind of journal
stila lip gloss- which is AHmazing
handwritten mail~ i love to carry handwritten words, that someone took the time to write me. so beautiful.


i am tagging you and you; ) let me know if you join in, so i can stop by and peek into your, 5 essentials.

merci, sofia.

happy day, my friends.

you might be dealing with all the snow too. there were reports we received twenty one inches, with fifteen inch drifts. sigh.

cookies were made
books were read
cartoons were watched
no school today
no school tomorrow
an achy son who has a cold
a daughter who is sick of doing said son's dishes ; )

i love that the neighborhood came together to help begin the clean up. snow and more snow.

...our family met a lovely woman. my husband set up an etiquette class, for the kids. we decided to take the class as a family. it was worth every single dime. i will tell you more on that class later. surprisingly,  i ended up getting a bit of business, out of the meeting. ; ) an engagement party.
i paired a amarone, with a parmesan and honey toasted, bread. the salty and the sweetness, worked divine together. fino sherry and a goat cheese was the other choice. i am happy both pairings, were a hit.

it's movie night~ i am really look forward to this evening. "dan in real life" i adore this movie. i also want dan's car. bliss~

stay warm, my friends~