just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.
proverb
As many of you know this is one of my favorite quotes. It was so sweet when my husband bought me a little purple box last night that held this cup and these words.
This morning I had such beautiful thoughts, while I sat quietly, reflecting, sipping my coffee, as the sun came up.
At one point, I missed my uncle David so much I cried. I cried like a child and wiped my tears with my sleeve.
David was the only father I knew, he was my bestest friend, ya know. As the sun started coming up, it warmed me, directly on my face. I always feel silly when I cry and then something so beautiful happens. It's like I feel almost guilty, for not witnessing the beauty that surrounds me, before I break open.
I don't know where I am going with this post. I just wanted to place my feelings here and ramble about... sunshine, caterpillars, life, loving, butterflies and the beginning of a new day. I would also like to place these words here...
for as long as it takes to heal, I am willing to wait. If that day doesn't come, I'm okay with that too. I encourage my self to feel every feeling that comes my way, without ever expecting an end result. I'm happy even when I cry. I believe my tears flow right to my soul along with my prayers. I seriously, dig that.
xo
: )
18 ladlefuls of love:
Hey Christeeeena! Ya cry long as for eva if need it naw. Et wash de soul quite clean. Ya 'ear.
Love
you lay what ever feelings you feel here. this is your sweet blog. your thoughts are utterly beautiful. i love that you shared this gorgeous picture and tender thoughts.
beautiful. this post fills me with the hope that i will be as courageous and strong as you when i am grieving for my own inevitable losses.
i'll "fly" with ya! blessings ELK
Your honesty blows me away. Thank you for your heartfelt words that are never held back and I learn so much from you! :)
ramble away !!! we love it when you do....and that QUOTE...one of my favorites, too !
If you run out of sleeves to dry your eyes on, I'll give you mine. And a big hug for when you are done. I miss you!
xoxo
Sugar! Did you know that the chemical composition of tears of grief than any other tears? They are more cleansing than tears of joy or tears of frustration. One of my friends told me this when my son died, Cry 'till you quit, grieve anyway you have to and tell anyone who says different to go to hell. Works for me! smooches
Sometimes crying makes us feel better, it lets the emotions out, don't you think.
Your moving post went straight to my heart.
don't ever stop crying. i believe that the emotions that tie us to those we have lost are actually the memories. if you stop crying, you have lost the memories. xo margie
I think your husband is a gem and the way you express your emotions is a healing blessing. xoxox
Just continue to know that he is with you. As my parents constantly remind me, although it's a painful fact, we are not meant to be here forever.
Thank you for the congrats! I am looking forward to getting the entire moving process DONE. You are next. ;)
:hugs:
What is, is.
love
This
.. sunshine, caterpillars, life, loving, butterflies and the beginning of a new day.
seems to me to be exactly you.
I think you should paint it on the wall of your bathroom, over your mirror.
This is going to sound stupid, but I always feel as though tears of grief open us up to the possibilities of God, in much the same way that all the great Christian mystics were able to "see" God once they were "emptied" of all sense of self...
Yeah, that sounds loony, but you go ahead and cry, honey. :) It's good for you.
xoxo,
Mary
your words cut through and into what is sacred. And your tears cleanse, like holy water and waterfalls.
there is a quote by Kahlil Gibran that goes something like, "Pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses our understanding." Your beautifully written post reminded me of it. sending hugs.
You're a beautiful person Christina.
Post a Comment